April 27, 2017 | Reality Struck

Today, was a busy day but I promised all my reader 3 readers so far that I will upload a post for 365 days straight. I will follow through even through it is pretty late here! Lets get into my life, well its kind of boring but you already knew that.

Today, I realized that the major I wanted to study at Penn State University would be a bitch because I am not good at math. Cyber security is all math courses and why would I challenge myself when I could just be a business student. Lets be honest, I am a lot smarter with business but I am pretty sure you can’t teach entrepreneurship. Cyber security major would include a lot of math and lots of science, which I am also not good at because I basically failed all of my science courses throughout high school.

So during my boring day at school as a senior, I get one nice perk which is to leave early but today it was a little bit earlier. I got to leave at 2:10 P.M. instead of 2:30 P.M. only 20 minutes difference through (FML). I hope next year I can score a schedule that I only have classes twice a week and none on fridays. That would be a solid schedule if I could pull that off. I know even if I have 3 days of classes, it won’t be a break because of the workload and everything that is due within short period of time for my major.


April 26,2017,

Hey, Guys!

Day 2 of 365 Challenge:

In my earlier post, I wrote about getting accepted into Penn State and all of that good stuff like every other high school senior. What I didn’t tell you was for me to attend PSU, I had to go in undeclared because I could not get into the business program. My grades were the cause of the holdback but I have one goal next fall which is getting the best grades as possible with a shit-ton of help. I don’t care if I have to spend all my days in the library with a tutor or someone helping me organize an outline for a paper; somebody helping me understand the text I just read about in a book. I want to get myself to the point where I can achieve greatness on my own merit. I know, I write about this everytime but It really bothers me, I want to change my ways and this is the only way I know how to. I am not going to enjoy my first two years but If I can somehow get myself through and be able to transfer into Monmouth University. That would be the day I scream “FUCK YES,” I really want to attend there in the fall but I decided since my grades were not well then I would only get a declined letter.

My addiction with Netflix grew in the past few months when I was binging on 13 Reason’s why; that show was sad and gruesome but it portrayed lots of parts of high school, that a lot of seniors see on the daily basis. The show hit home on me very quickly because of the substance in the show. I would wake up 7 am for school but when I am on a Netflix binge, I would wake up at 6 am just to binge on one or two episodes before having to get ready for school.


See you tomorrow!

January 4, 2017

I am typing this at 12:44 a.m and I have not taken one sip of alcohol in order for me to get into the mood to write this. I am aware, I have not been writing on this blog lately and I really don’t have any good excuses.


I remember sitting in my economic class during my junior year of high school last year watching The Pursuit of Happyness and one quote from the movie stuck with me and I will explain why “DON’T EVER LET SOMEONE TELL YOU THAT YOU CAN’T DO SOMETHING.” Last summer, I remember sitting down at lunch with three of my sisters talking about colleges and where I want to attend. The one thing I will note is that they were very harsh but in good conscience. I told them the number one school I want to get accepted to is a University that is close to where I live. They told me “With your grades and SAT scores, you will never be able to get into the school.” Last month I got a notification in the mail saying that my application has been updated” I was deferred with a request for an interview,” finally I got the ball back in my park.


Fast Forward: Yesterday afternoon at 3 pm, I went to attend the interview at the University I want to attend. I sat down with one of the admission counselor’s and the first question that came out was “Why do you want to attend this University?” I have never been in an interview that I felt so uncomfortable because I knew what was at stake. This interview could either get me accepted or it can give me decline letter in the mail. Nobody knows what disappointment is until they get a letter beginning with “I regretfully write….,” it’s literally a letter that makes you question yourself.